Great work! You are excellent writer! Gutwrenching child abuse you went trough and consequences for a lifetime. Loved the sex scenes, people hardly talk about that. I believe I have defense system too that kept me out of more extreme sexual behaviour. I think its my subconscious that guided me trough my gut to not get involved in certain situations. Also the mind body connection with illness manifesting where abuse was.
I look forward to next chapter and relationship🌹
Thank you for your encouraging comment, Agita. It is lonely and terrifying to lay down this sort of information in print where everyone can see it. You make me feel like I’m not so alone.
I appreciate you!
Something that I noticed for the first time by writing this chapter is a narrowing of my purpose.
Every addict or alcoholic who passes into recovery understands their innate purpose to help other people trapped in addiction.
In Chapter 10, "The Chelsea Hotel" during my near death experience, Buddy Handler pulled back a heavy, thick black velvet curtain. "Behind it was a throng of people. Hundreds, thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands. With every passing moment, the crowd multiplied. Without words, he revealed an indisputable truth. He dropped it straight into her heart and mind. The truth was this: her life, cut short like this, had consequences, not only for her, but for countless others."
It was the same curtain my father pulled aside revealing a stage set for the sexual exploitation of children. I understand, by this connection, that my purpose is to pull back the curtain on the deep emotional and psychological impact of child sexual abuse. There have been wonderful films about sex-trafficking, but, as far as I know, no one has talked about what these children experience inside themselves as they mature. My hope is that by turning myself inside out, a dialog will open up for victims and predators alike.
Great work! You are excellent writer! Gutwrenching child abuse you went trough and consequences for a lifetime. Loved the sex scenes, people hardly talk about that. I believe I have defense system too that kept me out of more extreme sexual behaviour. I think its my subconscious that guided me trough my gut to not get involved in certain situations. Also the mind body connection with illness manifesting where abuse was.
I look forward to next chapter and relationship🌹
Thank you for your encouraging comment, Agita. It is lonely and terrifying to lay down this sort of information in print where everyone can see it. You make me feel like I’m not so alone.
I appreciate you!
Something that I noticed for the first time by writing this chapter is a narrowing of my purpose.
Every addict or alcoholic who passes into recovery understands their innate purpose to help other people trapped in addiction.
In Chapter 10, "The Chelsea Hotel" during my near death experience, Buddy Handler pulled back a heavy, thick black velvet curtain. "Behind it was a throng of people. Hundreds, thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands. With every passing moment, the crowd multiplied. Without words, he revealed an indisputable truth. He dropped it straight into her heart and mind. The truth was this: her life, cut short like this, had consequences, not only for her, but for countless others."
It was the same curtain my father pulled aside revealing a stage set for the sexual exploitation of children. I understand, by this connection, that my purpose is to pull back the curtain on the deep emotional and psychological impact of child sexual abuse. There have been wonderful films about sex-trafficking, but, as far as I know, no one has talked about what these children experience inside themselves as they mature. My hope is that by turning myself inside out, a dialog will open up for victims and predators alike.